The last few days.. have been
THE DARKEST, MOST LONELY DAYS OF MY LIFE.
I've never felt like this.. I've never felt like there was literally no one to look to.
Sometimes I want to tell the Lord, "this plan of happiness of yours. well it's not really working...."
Yet, I've felt, COMPLETELY AT PEACE
Divine chastening has at least three purposes: (1) to persuade us to repent, (2) to refine and sanctify us, and (3) at times to redirect our course in life to what God knows is a better path.
I feel at times like these when I am doing everything that the lord wants me to do, when I'm giving it my best to be just like Christ. It feels as if things get worse and worse. It makes sense that things get harder, especially at this point in my life as I prepare to go on a mission, the one thing that the adversity doesn't want me to do. But I just have to say one thing to Satan, "might as well give up bro".