The natural man is an enemy to God

As humans we are fault finders. It's easier to find fault in something that we choose not to understand or in something we fear.

Alone? I think not

"This is crazy.." 

 I've found myself saying that phrase a couple times this week. It's weird how the times I just need someone there in my life.

 Everyone seems to be gone.. except for one person. 

Maybe I should get knee pads or something because, you could say I've been praying quite a bit lately. Ha If there's one thing that I've learned this past week is that there's one person that's always gonna be there and that's the person that never necessarily "shows up" in your life and you never technically "see him" but he's there. I can vouch for that more than anything. There are so many times I've actually felt his presence with me, so many times I've literally conversed with him, that it has brought me to tears. 

"When you can't sleep, don't count sheep but converse with the shepherd" -unknown

Crazy, how when I think I have things figured out, something happens to tell me that I don't. I find myself learning and growing everyday. Its quite the humbling experience. I love it.

I guess the best way to put it, is that the lord works in mysterious ways.

"God does notice us. But it is usually through another person that he meets our needs" -Spencer W. Kimball

Crazy how you knew exactly what I needed to hear... Well not really crazy, but you're the last person I expected it from. 

 If your happiness is based on your circumstances, your not going to be a very happy person. Happiness is a choice. -Elder Snowden

I wanna start by saying thanks, for being there for me at times were I truly needed someone to not be judgmental. When I didn't need someone to ask me what was wrong or talk me through it but when I needed someone to just forget the world with, and remember what a true friendship was like... Thank you so much. Thanks for being the person you that other people needed. Thank you for being so selfless. You've taught me so much and for that I love you.

That email helped me to direct my thoughts so much. Life is gonna have its ups and downs no matter what, Sunny days wouldn't be special, if it wasn't for rain, Joy wouldn't feel so good, if it wasn't for pain. There is going to be opposition in all things. Period. Therefore, there's gonna be times of sadness and times of happiness. But if there's one thing that I've learned in my life is that in this whole roller coaster of life there is one thing that will always be there... Peace. We can choose to live our life the way we should, to follow the teaching of Christ and we will be at peace. When we have that faith and that trust that he knows what's better for us, that he loves us, and wants nothing but us to grow in order to have eternal happiness. He would rather hurt us in order for us to have an eternal happiness then just lie to us and give us that temporal happiness. A friend will tell you what you want to hear, but a bro will tell you what you need to hear. Brotip #761. Jesus is the ultimate bro. He won't give you what you want but he'll give you what you need.

The second you truly believe in that and have faith in him. You're life just becomes so much more peaceful. Its hard to do but if it was so easy, it wouldn't be worth it.

Don't Give Up

 He isn't surprised when we fall, stumble, or mess up. He saw it the whole time and


LOVED


us the SAME.

Just keep going, he wants what's best for you.

Judgement

There's no good and bad people...

There's only Imperfect people & Jesus

I finally understand...

The last few days.. have been

THE DARKEST, MOST LONELY DAYS OF MY LIFE.


I've never felt like this.. I've never felt like there was literally no one to look to.
Sometimes I want to tell the Lord, "this plan of happiness of yours. well it's not really working...."


Yet, I've felt,  COMPLETELY AT PEACE


Divine chastening has at least three purposes: (1) to persuade us to repent, (2) to refine and sanctify us, and (3) at times to redirect our course in life to what God knows is a better path.


 I feel at times like these when I am doing everything that the lord wants me to do, when I'm giving it my best to be just like Christ. It feels as if things get worse and worse. It makes sense that things get harder, especially at this point in my life as I prepare to go on a mission, the one thing that the adversity doesn't want me to do. But I just have to say one thing to Satan, "might as well give up bro".

“Nevertheless the Lord seeth fit to chasten his people; yea, he trieth their patience and their faith.

“Nevertheless—whosoever putteth his trust in him the same shall be lifted up at the last day. Yea, and thus it was with this people”  -Mosiah 23:21-22

I feel that as soon as I get past this that I'll be able to do anything.  I can't wait till that day that things turn out. That day when things get better. That day when I rejoice and feel so happy that I didn't throw in the towel. That day when I can say 

Thank you Lord, for loving me enough to hurt me.

I just need to have faith that everything is happening for a reason, that its for the best and if there's someone that I should trust with my life, that I should give my life  to, it's the man upstairs..

 HE KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT'S BEST FOR ME