Sunday, August 28, 2011

I will not be still..

I've never been the kind to testify
I don't have the words his truth deserves
But it's a simple thing he asks
A worthy heart and willing hands
He says if I'll make the choice
He'll help me find my voice

I've never found a better song to describe my testimony, I feel so many times that the responsibilities I am given aren't for me, the things he asks of me. That I'm not worthy enough. This reminds me of days in High School, in seminary, as part of seminary council. The many promptings i would receive but yet not know what to do, but knowing that as long as I have a willing heart and go for it, that HE WILL HELP, as long as I give it my best and ASK for the help.

He calls me to serve and i cannot fail him

The one who has given me all that I have
I place my trust in him alone
He knows the yearnings of my soul
Because he believes in me

Sometimes.. k lets be real ALOT of times i think that the things I am asked to do are too hard for me, I feel like its too much of a burden. I try to make reasons and by reasons I mean excuses not to do them. Probably the worst thing I can do, but then I finally buck up and thing of words like these to remind we why I'm here, why I meet the people I do. It reminds me at times why even though i don't know what the outcome is I'm going to trust him, that its for the best of me. 

I put my future in his hands
Knowing he's made me all I am
I think ennufff is said.

Lifting the hands that hang down in sorrow
Strengthening knees that bend in despair
Reaching the hopeless hearts who do not know his love
Seeing their lives begin to change
I know ill never be the same

This goes out to all my homies on a mission. I miss you guys that for sure it seems like every week I'm having to make new friends ha. I don't think you guys understand how much it hurts me having to wait so long. But still can't wait to join you guys out there.