Saturday, May 5, 2012

Ships are safe in the Harbor

So my motorcycle broke down about 2 days ago.. So frustrating as this is my only way of transportation. Trying to stay positive, I told myself that it's fine. I'll just take the time and fix it, can't be that big of a deal. I start and everything is going great, things are flowing smoothly and its all good. It's just a matter of patience for things to work out. As I wait and hope that the things I fixed would be all that needed to be fix, I come to find that there's more to be done. Instantly I become frustrated, two days work for nothing. I feel like I hadn't gone anywhere. With frustration and anger I tell myself that I need to just sleep it off and see what I can do in the morning. As I laid in bed, thoughts began to build up in my head, all the times that I failed at anything that I put any effort in.

 All these thoughts of doubt and insecurity began to fill my mind. Sadness, frustration, and anger began to overcome me like never before. I couldn't think of a
single positive thought and you know what? I didn't like this. So I did what I knew to do best, pray.

 I got on my knees and asked God to bring me peace and comfort, that I know at times I am selfish but is it too much for me to ask for things to work out for once in my life? As I lay back in bed all the memories of the times that things fell apart, all the times that I failed came back to me. Anything I put my whole heart, time and devotion into never worked out for me. Wether it was fixing my bike, girls, lacrosse, dance, anything. I swear that the second I devoted my life to something, it fell apart. Things would start to go wrong one after another, and this really made me think, really made me begin to question things. Was I setting my heart on the things that I should? Was I devoting my life to God or to the world? Then it made me realize I was not sent to this Earth to merely have a good time or to satisfy urges, passions or desires. I was not sent to have "fun". I was sent to Earth to begin as a human infant and to grow to unbelievable proportions in wisdom, judgement, knowledge and power. I think its so funny that our society is so wrapped around being in comfort, in having life made easy, staying in our comfort zone. But that's not what life is about its about having faith and taking those risks knowing that things will turn out for the better. That no matter how hard things get and how uncomfortable we maybe feel we will keep pushing its about make our life worth it. Now the only problem is we usually become selfish and push out the savior and we begin to live a selfish life so that we may satisfy urges, passions or desires. It dawned on me that I needed to be living a life that was worth the life of the living savior. That is worth the death and suffering of a selfless, loving and perfect being. I began to ask how, began to think of habits that I could change, habits that I could create in order to live my life in such a matter. Which brought me to my next conclusion. Only out of our comfort zone do we have life changing experiences. Sometimes i think to myself how many people have been left out, how many have not had the opportunity to feel loved? To feel important, how many have been waiting for me in times of need, but yet I have robbed them of their blessings because of my selfishness... Its funny because these last few weeks, I've had a lot of time alone and a lot of time to think things out and looking back I see so many instances where I put myself first and didn't help other or I saw the times when I put the needs of others before mine and mine own needs were met with a greater capacity then I would have been able to manage on my own. Sometimes I have the habit to turn back into old habits because it feels safe,  its what I know best. The future is scary but we can't just run back to the past because it's familiar. Yes it's tempting but it's a mistake.  Life is meant to be lived with faith, hope and certainty that things will work out for the better. If we knew exactly how its going to be where would the growth be?

Ships are safe in the harbor but that's now what ships are for.

I'm safe keeping the gospel to myself, I'm safe not loving people whole heartedly, I'm safe keeping to myself, I'm safe making sure that for these couple of months I prepare by myself and not help those around us. But I came to the Earth to love others, to help those around me, to put their needs before mine. A lot of times we ask ourselves why things are happening but something that I learned is that we will understand the why when we are in service. When we begin to become selfless and charitable towards all those around us then we start to put Christ before ourselves then we see the big picture and understand why.

Saturday, March 17, 2012

I have often pondered, Why is it that the Son of God and His holy prophets and all the faithful Saints have trials and tribulations, even when they are trying to do Heavenly Father’s will? Why is it so hard, especially for them?


Though my trials may be difficult, there's always some one who has it harder...


The purpose of our life on earth is to grow, develop, and be strengthened through our own experiences.


What, then, does it mean to wait upon the Lord? In the scriptures, the word wait means to hope, to anticipate, and to trust. To hope and trust in the Lord requires faith, patience, humility, meekness, long-suffering, keeping the commandments, and enduring to the end.




To wait upon the Lord means planting the seed of faith and nourishing it “with great diligence, and … patience.”
It means praying as the Savior did—to God, our Heavenly Father—saying: “Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done.”It is a prayer we offer with our whole souls in the name of our Savior, Jesus Christ.
Waiting upon the Lord means pondering in our hearts and “receiv[ing] the Holy Ghost” so that we can know “all things what [we] should do.”
As we follow the promptings of the Spirit, we discover that “tribulation worketh patience”and we learn to “continue in patience until [we] are perfected.”
Waiting upon the Lord means to “stand fast” and “press forward” in faith, “having a perfect brightness of hope.”
It means “relying alone upon the merits of Christ” and “with [His] grace assisting [us, saying]: Thy will be done, O Lord, and not ours.”
As we wait upon the Lord, we are “immovable in keeping the commandments,” knowing that we will “one day rest from all [our] afflictions.”
And we “cast not away … [our] confidence” that “all things wherewith [we] have been afflicted shall work together for [our] good.”
Those afflictions will come in all shapes and sizes. Job’s experience reminds us what we may be called upon to endure. Job lost all his possessions, including his land, house, and animals; his family members; his reputation; his physical health; and even his mental well-being. Yet he waited upon the Lord and bore a powerful personal testimony. He said:
“For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth:
“And though … worms destroy this body, yet in my flesh shall I see God.”
“Though he slay me, yet will I trust in him.”

Who am I to complain? Who am I to sit here and be selfish, when there's people out there who need me? Who am I to try to make my life easier, when I already have it so easy? Who am I to tell the lord, No? 


"Let us not give up on the Lord. His blessings are eternal" - Elder Hales

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Y.O.L.O.

Y.O.L.O.

You Only Live Once. I've been hearing this phrase quite a bit lately, especially from friends. It's funny all these people around me, using the phrase "You only live once" as an excuse to do dumb or crazy things. As an excuse to live a

 SELFISH LIFE


I hate to put it that way but I don't know how else to say it. I see people about to leave on missions or going to college moving away and before they leave they want to do all these things... I take a look at the list and its a bunch of things for themselves.. Get with chicks. Go to an awesome party. Songs talk about living like you're dying. Go skydiving, go places do all these things to build memories.. but memories for yourself.

Even though I know they don't mean it that way, it's crazy to think that SUBCONSCIOUSLY we are all selfish.

I'm sick of living a selfish life. Yes I am gonna live my life like I'm dying, because you do only live once. So are you gonna waste that life on yourself? or are you gonna give it to others. I only have once chance to make an impact in people's life. I only have on chance to help out a friend, I only have one life to show those around them I love them, I only have one life to serve my fellow men. I only have one life to give myself to God. Because we only live once doesn't mean we can do whatever we want but because we only live once, everything we do is far more important than we can imagine.

Dear world,

 I hope you're ready for this new Arthur, because I'm giving it my all

Sincerely, I'm gonna kick your trash

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Love.

This isn't like my usual posts but i dunno its been running through my thoughts a lot.. 

This girl's been making me crazy ha

There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try.

No matter how much you wish you could just stop and move on.

Sometimes we love someone so much that... it makes us crazy.

But we should all be blessed enough to end up with someone that has a little of that insanity

Someone who never lets go.

Someone who cherishes us forever.

Just Beginning

I hate how I feel like I'm so old. I'm still so young with so much ahead of me and so much to learn.

Come on Arty. Do not give up, the beginning is the hardest.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Patience is a Virtue

It always rains the hardest on the people who deserve the sun...

It's gonna be worth it. Just ride it out Arty ha

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Where words fail, music speaks

Abide with me; 'tis eventide.The day is past and gone;The shadows of the evening fall;The night is coming on.Within my heart a welcome guest,Within my home abide.
O Savior, stay this night with me;Behold, 'tis eventide.O Savior, stay this night with me;Behold, 'tis eventide.
Abide with me; 'tis eventide.Thy walk today with meHas made my heart within me burn,As I communed with thee.Thy earnest words have filled my soulAnd kept me near thy side.
Abide with me; 'tis eventide,And lone will be the nightIf I cannot commune with theeNor find in thee my light.The darkness of the world, I fear,Would in my home abide.